Everything is fine.....for the moment....
Just came back from a very routine billiard session at Katong....I just do not get sick of cue sports....similarly mahjong too...haha...perhaps its due to the little money involved that perks my motivation...lolz!~ However, the more I indulge in all these past-times, the more I realise its not so much about the money involved that gets me interested. Not that I play to lose....but rather to say winning isn't about all the money...however...self actualisation would be too glorious a term to describe it though. I dunno what I am talking about...haha
Perhaps its due to the relief that everything is getting on fine now....issues bogging my mind thrashed out and settled...I feel like a heavy load has been gotten rid of my back. Now I feel more comfortable meeting more people...knowing the people I wanna know better. I hope I can move on from here and who knows....things might get even better. I am not about to ask for more than I deserve though. Even if things remain as it is now...I am rather satisfied too.
However, I do feel the need to emphasize the importance of communication in and relationship...be it friends or kin...what's the point of having someone to guess and fret over what's in your mind when the easier thing would be to voice out anything you feel worth a mention. I am not one who likes to hide my displeasure when I feel things are not right...and neither do I conceal my appreciation when I truly feel so. Wouldn't things be easier this way?
I do not expect people around me to adopt the same mentality...but at least accept me the way I am....I suppose that's not too much to ask for. I am glad I do have friends around me who understand and accept how I chose to live my life. In fact, I think I just found another....and I am elated about it. More than enough to keep my spirits high for the moments ahead. I am not sure how things will turn out...and I am not pining high hopes...but at least I got to a good start...so you could say its half a battle won...pardon me for my optimism though....haha
I guess that's enough blabbering for the night...if Alan and Fred is reading this...I promise to meet up with u all next week for a drink or something...I feel apologetic for not turning up last night for the gathering that seems so rare nowadays. But I am sure U all will understand...haha...
Perhaps its due to the relief that everything is getting on fine now....issues bogging my mind thrashed out and settled...I feel like a heavy load has been gotten rid of my back. Now I feel more comfortable meeting more people...knowing the people I wanna know better. I hope I can move on from here and who knows....things might get even better. I am not about to ask for more than I deserve though. Even if things remain as it is now...I am rather satisfied too.
However, I do feel the need to emphasize the importance of communication in and relationship...be it friends or kin...what's the point of having someone to guess and fret over what's in your mind when the easier thing would be to voice out anything you feel worth a mention. I am not one who likes to hide my displeasure when I feel things are not right...and neither do I conceal my appreciation when I truly feel so. Wouldn't things be easier this way?
I do not expect people around me to adopt the same mentality...but at least accept me the way I am....I suppose that's not too much to ask for. I am glad I do have friends around me who understand and accept how I chose to live my life. In fact, I think I just found another....and I am elated about it. More than enough to keep my spirits high for the moments ahead. I am not sure how things will turn out...and I am not pining high hopes...but at least I got to a good start...so you could say its half a battle won...pardon me for my optimism though....haha
I guess that's enough blabbering for the night...if Alan and Fred is reading this...I promise to meet up with u all next week for a drink or something...I feel apologetic for not turning up last night for the gathering that seems so rare nowadays. But I am sure U all will understand...haha...
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