101
Post no. 101 2 months into 2007, I just suddenly felt the urge to record my thoughts for the moment. Nothing in particular. If anything is, maybe because yesterday was officially the 2nd anniversary of my stay in my current career phase. I look back at myself 2 years ago and now.
Have I achieved whatever I have set out for myself? Maybe not to perfection but I felt the 2 yrs spent were well worth it. I have learnt alot, grown up, gained much knowledge and skills that will apply aptly in my life even if one day I might not be in the industry anymore. Alot of things happened recently though. A mix of excitement and disappointment. However, I learnt to see things in different perspectives and that really is something everyone must learn. Things that are negative may not be totally negative. Instead seek to derive the positives out of it. I believe all things happen for a reason. A setback can sometimes be a timely wake up call and just serve to motivate you to push on further. Only if you see it in the positive light. It ain't easy but it must be done.
A peer shared with me this idea which I find silly at first but upon deeper thoughts found it to be very true. Sometimes in life, you need motivation to work for. And this motivation can come in the form of another person. I thought that it was quite silly to work for another person but then if this person is a loved one, what's wrong with working hard to provide a better life for her, pamper her and relieve her from alot of mundane worries in life. I think it is slowly starting to work for him and I just have this lingering thought inside me. Would it work for me?
A few of my close friends have gotten into relationships recently, season of love maybe, and I have seen changes in them. Positive changes to be exact. If its just mere coincidence, then its coincidental enough for my name to appear on next Monday's Toto winning list. Its gonna be tough if I want a result out of nothing, which is what the status is currently. I can try very hard and hope for some divine intervention and everything will click. BUT. But the next question that comes along with it will be commitment. I need not say much about it anymore. I think I have said enough about it last time. Am I afraid of commitment? A reluctant yes to a certain extent. So there goes.
I also don't know why I am blabbering all these now. Fact is I have only thought about it for a little while I was bored during a meeting earlier in the evening. But the train of thoughts keep coming and I am somewhat relieved that I still have this avenue to just record my thoughts in case I were to think about it again. It seems strange that after blabbering so much, I have not yet found a definite answer to the questions lingering. Maybe like my peer put it, you will only know it when it happens. Maybe.
Have I achieved whatever I have set out for myself? Maybe not to perfection but I felt the 2 yrs spent were well worth it. I have learnt alot, grown up, gained much knowledge and skills that will apply aptly in my life even if one day I might not be in the industry anymore. Alot of things happened recently though. A mix of excitement and disappointment. However, I learnt to see things in different perspectives and that really is something everyone must learn. Things that are negative may not be totally negative. Instead seek to derive the positives out of it. I believe all things happen for a reason. A setback can sometimes be a timely wake up call and just serve to motivate you to push on further. Only if you see it in the positive light. It ain't easy but it must be done.
A peer shared with me this idea which I find silly at first but upon deeper thoughts found it to be very true. Sometimes in life, you need motivation to work for. And this motivation can come in the form of another person. I thought that it was quite silly to work for another person but then if this person is a loved one, what's wrong with working hard to provide a better life for her, pamper her and relieve her from alot of mundane worries in life. I think it is slowly starting to work for him and I just have this lingering thought inside me. Would it work for me?
A few of my close friends have gotten into relationships recently, season of love maybe, and I have seen changes in them. Positive changes to be exact. If its just mere coincidence, then its coincidental enough for my name to appear on next Monday's Toto winning list. Its gonna be tough if I want a result out of nothing, which is what the status is currently. I can try very hard and hope for some divine intervention and everything will click. BUT. But the next question that comes along with it will be commitment. I need not say much about it anymore. I think I have said enough about it last time. Am I afraid of commitment? A reluctant yes to a certain extent. So there goes.
I also don't know why I am blabbering all these now. Fact is I have only thought about it for a little while I was bored during a meeting earlier in the evening. But the train of thoughts keep coming and I am somewhat relieved that I still have this avenue to just record my thoughts in case I were to think about it again. It seems strange that after blabbering so much, I have not yet found a definite answer to the questions lingering. Maybe like my peer put it, you will only know it when it happens. Maybe.
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